This training sessions is dedicated to JoAnne Whale, a mother, who passed away on February 3,2012. JoAnne Whale wasn’t a Special Operations Warrior. To me she was much more because she was my mother. There are a lot of things in life that I do not understand. One of the additions to that list is why my mother had to suffer so much and for so long with her battle with mesothelioma (asbestos cancer). How did a women who was a house wife her whole life even get it ? Why did a women with such a strong faith and who was such a good servant have to go through so much ? Lots of questions very little answers. Over the past two weeks I have found it very difficult at times to stay focused and get through the workouts. Not the best mindset considering that I am at the peak of the hardest workouts of this training regiment. At other times I have found the workouts as an escape to what was happening. After the night I had I wasn’t planning on doing a workout today.  I did one anyway because I felt the time alone doing something physical would be good for me emotionally.  I really only had a couple hours of sleep but that is what will happen on the UFC so no sympathy there.  I ended up paddling 35 miles in 8 hours and 13 minutes which gave me an average time of 4.26 MPH which is a pretty fast long distance speed for a deep dish Dreamcatcher. In fact this is much faster than I have planned to do on any long distance workout. I think it was more raw emotions powering me though the workout. Turns out it was good for me emotionally. Didn’t get any insight or answers to my questions but it did help in getting me to the point of just letting the questions go. Got to have faith and just be comfortable with the unanswered. I did do a workout on Thursday which was a 4 mile elliptical workout in 33 minutes along with a Lift 2 weight lifting session and a 6 mile easy paddle. On Friday I did a 3.5 mile run in 33 minuets and a TRX2 – 7 Week workout. Todays’ workout was not that painful for me. For my mother, efforts were made to try and manage her pain with medication. For the families of fallen Special Operations Warriors the only thing to help take the edge off the pain of their loss is time.  A donation to the Special Operations Warrior Foundation will make it easier for these families.   http://www.firstgiving.com/fundraiser/billwhale/ufc2012